It's certainly true to say that I have rather a lot on my plate at the moment, but I'm sure I'm not the only one. Why do I seem to be the only person who struggles to know which tasks need to be prioritised? Why do I carry around enormous sackfuls of guilt about 'neglecting' my son when others in the same situation as me seem unburdened?
The dilemma is this:
I study in order to improve my career prospects for the future. This will hopefully enable me to work more from home, building a stable financial future for us all.
I need to work part-time until I can build up a big enough client base to support me working solely from home.
I feel that between studying, working & all the 101 other things I'm supposed to be doing I don't get to spend enough time with my son where I am happy, free and not stressing about crossing another thing off of my mental to-do list!
Should I give up my studying? This would severely limit my future earning potential and be a painful reminder of all the other avenues of study I gave up on far too easily. I fear I would feel like a failure all over again.
Do I give up working? Financially this is just NOT an option.
What am I to do? Until someone invents a pill which gives me limitless energy so I can survive on approximately 3 hours sleep a week, I'm going to be stuck feeling guilty.